behind in all things

If you, my dear reader--which, HELLO!--were to go back and look through the--what, four?--blog posts I have published on this barren site, you'd find a common theme: Me, bemoaning my inability to follow through with the incessant nudging to get a blog up again.

It's actually kind of funny, because one of those four posts is me describing getting one year older and how I felt prompted, yet again, to figure out a blog. Well, I just gained yet another year two days ago, and I'm ironically finding myself in the exact same spot. TIME TO ACT.

Here's my reality, and I hope beyond all hopes to not step on any toes. First of all, I hate hate hate figuring out all this design stuff. I don't know. I just wanna do the dang content; do I really need to have a favicon and a slider bar and timestamps and whatever other details? But I'm also picky and a perfectionist, and I want it to look nice. So it's not just plug and play, or as simple as merely "publish  post."

Second fact in the reality of the Tawny-sucking-at-blogging-for-years-on-end saga is that blogging isn't what it used to be. Now that I really think about it, ten years ago, blogs were used for sharing musings or as a travel diary (which I did, thanks to my mother's pleadings and I'm grateful for the gem that resulted). That's about it haha. But now it's lucrative and tons of people do it and PROPS TO THEM. Irrefutable fact is that today blogging has a certain reputation or connotation, and I'm just...I'm not trying to sell anything. "Bloggers" are wonderful. But I'm just not one of them. Again, not trying to offend anyyyyyone; this has just been a roadblock for me as I've gone back and forth about getting back into this.

I also wonder who the crap will read anything I have to say. But that only holds me up for about .3 seconds because if even only one person happens to read what I have to say and gleans something meaningful from it, then it's worth it.  The subheading quote thing that I've had on this shadow of a blog since 2014 is the following from Elder David A. Bednar's 2014 Education Week address:

"I now extend to you the invitation to help transform the trickle into a flood. Beginning at this place on this day, I exhort you to sweep the earth with messages filled with righteousness and truth--messages that are authentic, edifying, and praiseworthy--and literally to sweep the earth as with a flood."

That quote hit me like a ton of freaking bricks six years ago and has stuck with me ever since. I have to take part in this cause; with all the hateful, evil, negative, and worthless material there is on the internet, I hope to add at least my tiny trickle of good, beautiful, faith-promoting, real life, authentic, optimistic, and hopeful. Because life is wonderful and hard, but worth it. And we can learn beautiful lessons along the way. And share them with others. Plus, I firmly believe that Heavenly Father gave us this magnificent tool that is the internet, with all its facets and outgrowths, as a means to sow goodness.

And I intend to do just that.

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